Things will never go ur weay all the time. it will disapoint u.
things in life. especially love.
yea when u have a boyfrend, they were so sweet when they're after u.
once they have u, things start to change. the fire goes weaker, the flower starts to wilt.
it wasnt tht sweet anymore.

if only people could b themselves all the way, wouldnt it b better. love is really stupid.
love is unreasonable.plain stupid.
why would i care, to love someone so much, when theres so much better, who loves me.
loves me more with their heart.

i dont wanna be tht stupid girl who's always into blind relationships, with no meaning.
yes im easy, easy to fall in love, so weak against all these.
i just wanna change, for the better.
i dont wanna be the one who always give in and feeling scared.
scared of losing him.i wanna b someone who's strong, telling myself, without him i wont die.
there's still many more out there, having their eyes on me, in sch, in town, anywhere.
up there, He's loving me with all his heart.

i admit i have emotion disorder, i'll feel sad just a second aft smiling. I'll feel bad just bcoz i did 1 stupid mistake. I feel guilty all the time for being me. i'm a sick person, in the mind.
going in and out of relationships like a *hoe.which i din wish for.

and many times i wanna kill myself, coz i dont feel belong here, on this earth. a worthless pieace of bitcH. the one problem that i really wanna solve is how to make myself smarter, in handling love? relationship.
i just did a flashback on ma past, and yes i was rly stupid. Im supposedly their gf, not their slaves? was i too good back then? will i repeat them in the future? definitely, so many relationshipsi've been into, i did the same mistakes. too good to all that ive been thru, which i shudnt.

and there's only who's scared, of losing my partner, and they're not scared at all, in turn causes me to worry so much and they were annoyed by tht and got mad at me, all i did was loving them with all my heart. I hate being me.perhaps for me staying single is the best, and having close guys frends like what i have now, is better for me.