I don't know why.. But i have a feeling to suddenly blog this down...

there's a person that i met few years back thru my brother.. He was handsome from what i remember.. He's tall and fair.. we weren't close... we never was.. but actually, i got my eyes set on him... we met for a several times... and the more i get to know him, the more i find him attractive... He's humorous and adorable... and after my brother go back to jkt... I never get the chance to see him again... nevertheless, i've been thinking of him... hoping we'd meet somewhere, or even bump onto each other by accident...

i really find him friendly, helpfull and smart... he's younger than me...
well, over the years... I've actually been having intimate friends... but i can never love them, there's something in my heart, that stopped me from doing tht.. And actually somewhere in my mind, i was thinking of him.. Many times i told myself it's so impossible... But that didn't help at all. Only later on, i talked to him online... And that actually made me very happy...and recently, i've been talking to him..Whether or not he knows, but i'm so thankful to get this chance... I'm not asking for more.. Just keep it this way, i'm happy enough...

Nobody knows abt this... Not even my sis... But i can't keep it in my heart anymore... i feel suffocated keeping it all to myself... But scared to tell anyone about this... So i just blog it ..... =)
However, whatever happens next.. good or bad... i won't feel sad.. Because i don't really expect much about it. Given up on it.. time to move on.