Now.. It has come to a point that i think i have a stuck up family...
last night b4 i fall i asleep, i was just thinking... thinking and thinking..

-yes stuck up is the word.. how often do they find me having any request upon anything? i think most of the time i just keep quiet and complain to myself.. coz when i start complaining, they gave something like " DKDC-dont know dont care" or " just shut up ure not making any sense " but of course in a nicer way.. since im brought up that way, ive learnt to keep my mouth shut and not commenting too much.. but inside ive got all the arguing done. and yet my mom said something like " oh family's the best, u can tok abt anything... compared to frends " sure thing mom, any prove to that? i do talk to just my sister.. HUH u wont find me talking my shit out to my bro! or eldest sis... of coz not to my younger bro.. MY dad, CMI. my mom. yeah same CMI.

so i tell most of my problem to myself.. Or to my frend.. even tht only to my closest frend whom i think im comfortable with. and a stuck up family doesnt rly help each other.. they only know how to scold and advise scold and advise without asking our point of view... i think its damn important... TO JUST SHUT UP FOR AWHILE AND LISTEN! HELLOW I got a MOUTH NOT JUST FOR EATING. I HAVE TO TALK. and u expect me to love u? yeah i love u.. but how can i express my love to u mom? if all u do is that.. wHen i opened my mouth u DONT EVEN CARE..

sometimes im depressed coz of this... on this earth.. who can b nice enough to listen to me whining.. huh? i think no one.. i was expecting my mom. BUT WELL DOnt think abt it. yeah... and i think my family think im all that.. ATTP, weird..sicko...psycho..mental.. whatever i dont care.. Look at them.. arent they just the same? HUH.

WHATEVER!